SIM FREDERICK MCCARTY PASSED AWAY sATURDAY MORNING ABOUT 4 A.M. JUNE 20,2009. HE LOOKED FORWARD TO SEEING AND BEING WITH NICHOLAS. HE DIED OF NATURAL CAUSES AFTER COMPLICATIONS OF A BROKEN LEFT SHOULDER AND 3 BROKEN RIBS SUSTAINED IN A FALL. FATHER AND SON SHARED THE SAME NAME ,A LIFE TOGETHER IN THEIR HOME, A LOVE OF SPORTS,AND GREAT LOVE FOR EACH OTHER,THEIR FAMILY AND THE WORLD AROUND THEM.

We are coming up to 4 years without Nick,  This anniversary starts early and stays late.

IT'S SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE TO YESTERDAY

• How do I say goodbye to what we had?
• The good times that made us laugh
• Outweigh the bad.
• I thought we'd get to see forever
• But forever's gone away,
• It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
• I don't know where this road is going to lead.
• All I know is where we've been
• And what we've been through.

• If we get to see tomorrow
• I hope it's worth all the wait
• It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

• And I'll take with me the memories
• To be my sunshine after the rain
• It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

• And I'll take with me the memories
• To be my sunshine after the rain
• It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterdzy.

Sunday,May 31,2009

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When I die...

When I die
when my coffin
is being taken out
you must never think
i am missing this world

don't shed any tears
don't lament or
feel sorry
i'm not falling
into a monster's abyss

when you see
my corpse is being carried
don't cry for my leaving
i'm not leaving
i'm arriving at eternal love

when you leave me
in the grave
don't say goodbye
remember a grave is
only a curtain
for the paradise behind

you'll only see me
descending into a grave
now watch me rise
how can there be an end
when the sun sets or
the moon goes down

it looks like the end
it seems like a sunset
but in reality it is a dawn
when the grave locks you up
that is when your soul is freed

have you ever seen
a seed fallen to earth
not rise with a new life
why should you doubt the rise
of a seed named human

have you ever seen
a bucket lowered into a well
coming back empty
why lament for a soul
when it can come back
like Joseph from the well

when for the last time
you close your mouth
your words and soul
will belong to the world of
no place no time

Nicholas.I-Miss-You

I-have-lost-a-life-----not-my-own.But-it-would-have-been-easier-to-have-lost-my-own-life-Than-to-have-lost-the-life-I-loved-more-than-my-own,

Thank-you-Sascha

MY-NICHOLAS-WAS-a-part-of-me.--Whether-I-choose-to-call-his-shared-life-with-me-a-long-time-together-or-brief;-nothing-can-take-away-the-specialness-of-having-been-allowed-to-give-life-to-Simeon-Nicholas-McCarty----who,in-his-leaving------------has-given-the-,,miracle-of-life-more-meaning..---What-if-I-had-never-had-him-at-all?

I-shared-with-the-world-in-anticipating-his-arrival,splashed-about-his-entry-on-that-beautiful-July-morning-1979,and-grew-and-enjoyed-him-as-he-grew-through-the-years.-Our-lives-were-not-rosy-but-special-and-precious.---He-and-I-,mother-and-son.with-its-unique-relationship-EXISTED,we-WERE.--That-special-time,and-my-special-Nick-Man-will--always-live-in-my-heart-and-my-memory.

Wednesday April-29,2009